it will come.

the word: call.

what am i doing? what am i all about?

this time of the year certainly seems to be the time when seniors in college are starting to freak out about "what's next?" after their cozy time in college, and it seems that it's in this time, others are looking into new jobs, new careers, new directions in life...perhaps it's because i'm working in higher education right now, that the year pretty much "ends" when the school year comes to a close in mid-may. and so, it's that time...

transition maybe?

the questions start coming out (or start to express themselves, rather!) -

what am i all about? what am i doing? what am i going to do with my major? do i like where i'm living? should i move?

wouldn't it be so much easier if the answers could just be given to us so obviously? easier - yes. but fun and free? hardly. i suppose that's where the excitement lies!

i remember when i was living in the philippines mid-way through my mission year, that i started seeing all over facebook: college acceptance posts, pictures of my friends' tummies who were expecting in june, summer weddings, and enthusiasm for what is to come. i had to remind myself, crystal, be confident in your call - keep seeking, keep going - you are right where you need to be. all will reveal itself in time.

in.time.

well, again, it is in this time, that i am reminded of the importance of checking in with myself and joyfully seeking that inner peace that lies inside....

pretty sure we will find in the various ends that we meet in our lives, that the answer has been inside us all along..it just takes time, that's all.

hope you get a chance on this beautiful sunday to ask yourself these same questions as well! :)

thanks henri nouwen for your inspiration once again:

So many terrible things happen every day that we start wondering whether the few things we do ourselves make any sense.  When people are starving only a few thousand miles away, when wars are raging close to our borders, when countless people in our own cities have no homes to live in, our own activities look futile. Such considerations, however, can paralyse us and depress us.

Here the word call becomes important.  We are not called to save the world, solve all problems, and help all people.  But we each have our own unique call, in our families, in our work, in our world.  We have to keep asking God to help us see clearly what our call is and to give us the strength to live out that call with trust.  Then we will discover that our faithfulness to a small task is the most healing response to the illnesses of our time.